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So alright, I just want to put a disclaimer on this post that I am NOT complaining... just keeping it real.
We've started the back and forth commuting for John to Memphis... so it's kind of like being a jack in the box... I never know when he's going to pop up. It keeps things interesting - to say the least. But it leaves me at times doing the Mom thing solo...
I called myself a "single Mom" over the weekend when describing the situation and was quickly reminded that I'm NOT single. So - we'll say "solo Mom" or something more catchy - if you can think of it.
Anyway, so here I am... it's 19 degrees in Houston, blistering wind... snow predicted for late tomorrow through Friday... up to 2" of snow... which I know to a lot of you is a whole bunch of nothing - but for this Houston girl - it's nothing I've ever seen here before.
I've got the boys to myself... a migraine... James is getting SEVEN teeth at once right now... and both boys are bottomless pits - putting away their weight in food everyday. I could just crawl in a hole and do some sort of groundhog move... maybe I could resurface in 6-8 weeks when it's over? Nope.
I've got to figure out how to push through it all... with a smile on my face. To say "it ain't easy" would be the understatement of the century... but people have done more with less, right? So where do I get off feeling sorry for myself at times? Where do I get the nerve to say anything?
A dear, dear friend... (she knows who she is) told me yesterday that I am too hard on myself... and I guess I am at times - I just don't feel like I deserve to be tired or weary when there are people dealing with bigger problems than I am. I also guess that I need to stay on myself to make sure that my boys have everything they need - because they can't fend for themselves... so I need to stay on my game or something will get dropped.
This means that I'm up at 4:30 getting things together for the day, and I don't sit down until everything is packed up and ready to go the night before... but I certainly appreciate my 10-15 minutes that I sit down to eat at 8:30 or 9PM... those are my magic minutes. Literally! It's almost as good as the moment I climb into bed...and silently pray that my two little angels will sleep through the night. Apparently those prayers are going unanswered at the moment since I went to bed at about 10... and had to feed kiddos at 12, 3, and 4... because you can't tell a 9 month old or 3 month old that Mommy has a migraine and needs to rest.
We'll see what this crazy day & weather bring our way too - because the sitter has already lost power this morning... and it's only supposed to get colder and yuckier until Saturday! I may be having to make a mad dash to pick up two cold little men, and what... bring them to work? I don't know - but even if we have to stay in the car... I'll find a way to keep them warm!
Hi Kim, I haven't written anything in a while and I must say, reading your post this morning gave me a much needed chuckle. I hope you don't mind. The part about James getting 7 teeth at the same time made me laugh out loud because even though my kids are grown I remember those days.
ReplyDeleteJust to catch up on me, I found out the end of December I will be laid off in the 3rd Q of 2011 after 11 years with my company, not bad but I am 55, yikes what's an older lady to do but get right back out there .lol. I wasn't suupose to find out but thankfully a co-worker who is also my best buddy felt she couldn't not tell me. Thank goodness for true friends. Yes, I will get severance and do have early retirement but I'm not ready to leave the working world. So I actually have an interview tomorrow that I am excited about and it wasn't to hard to get.
Kim, my advice, just do whatever you need to hang in there, take care of your little ones and help John with his comute and remember those words "this to shall pass". And please keep writing whatever you do...thanks for my morning smile!
Susan from Timonium, Maryland
Listen to your friend. She's right. :)
ReplyDeleteBesides, aren't the most difficult circumstances the ones we find ourselves in? You can never compare your situation to someone else. Everyone has different situations in life that they need to deal with and everyone is equipped differently to handle them. Instead of looking at yours and thinking how you could be doing better, look at the fact that all of the balls you have in the air right now...are still in the air. Your sons are happy, healthy and WELL FED. They are growing and doing great! I'm sure it just seems a whole lot worse to you because you're feeling the brunt of exhaustion from it all.
Oh I'm so sorry you're dealing with all that AND a migraine! I had migraines for 3 days last week and I it's certainly not fun. Even worse for you since you're on your own with your babies and have to wake up several times a night! I think my migraines (last week any way) turned out to be allergy related because they went away after I used an allergy nasal spray. I know many different things can trigger a migraine though. I hope you get relief soon and start feeling better!
ReplyDeleteThis mommy thing is tough sometimes, isn't it?? I don't have any answers. I am struggling too right now. Just wanted to say that you're not alone - and that I'm praying for you. (((Hugs))) my sweet friend.
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