Aliens

Well, so much for that! My doctor's office just called to tell me that my progesterone level is 0.9... and an ovulating woman would have a number of 10 or higher. I honestly can tell you without a shadow of a doubt that I have no emotion over this right now... it could be that I am just so ill from this nausea that I don't have any energy/emotion left - or it could be that even in light of letting myself dream a little bit - I knew... deep down, I knew.

I want it so badly - I just feel like on some level when it happens - I'll know deep down in my soul. Sort of like when I met John and I just knew that he was going to be my husband... you guys know what I'm talking about?

So apparently the Clomid did a major number on my hormones... as my testosterone went from 20 to 52 in a matter of like 5 days! Again, I don't know why in the WORLD they would have put me on this drug knowing that I had to take the pill for 3 weeks to cut my testosterone level from 40 to 20... ARG!

Okay, so they're changing me to a different pill... for another 3 weeks - I'll be taking Ovcon which is supposed to be better at reducing testosterone levels than Femcon. So we'll try that... and then we left it with them getting me some information on injections.

There is another oral medication that I could try, but she said it was our choice... so we'll just have to see what they say. The thing that bothered me about the other oral medication is that supposedly (and I'm saying it like that because I've gotten mis-information from this nurse before) there is only one dosage on Femara - so it seems like a shot in the dark. Am I wrong that it also freaks me out that Femara is something they give breast cancer patients?

Anyway...

I did some research on my own just now, and found a place that sells IVF medicines to see what the cost will be. It'll depend on the dosages and stuff, but it looks like if I'm on one of the lower dosages - it might be alright. Then again - I'm a rookie - so those of you that are more experienced... please share with me how and where you get your meds from so that I can make sure to find the lowest price/best pharmacy. I don't want to do this wrong... so seriously - let me benefit from your knowledge!

They said that they'll put me on Gonal-F, so I'm just beginning to look into what that is and how it works - but it does come loaded in a pen form like my other injections for diabetes - so at least it's not something completely foreign to me. They also make it in another form, so it would depend on the prescription again... but you know there will be more information coming as we progress down that path.

She also said that they'll have me come in for a teaching visit, at which time I could see the doctor if I wanted to... I'll have to talk to John and see what he thinks - he's much better at the questions and getting information than I am.

So girls - it looks like we'll be heading into round two - send me links for CRAZY socks to wear to at least make myself laugh through all of this!