I've been emailing with a blog friend of mine today about various freakouts that I've been battling with in my head about this surgery. Mainly that I'm scared to death that the fact that my scale isn't moving - or my weight isn't going down - that this means that I've done all of this for nothing. I try to force those thoughts out of my head, but from time to time - they creep in and take hold of my brain... probably because we've all been conditioned by the diets we've tried in the past that have only lead to failure.
The difference with surgery is that you can't give up and go back to your old ways - or you can, but you'd really have to be ready for some pain and work at it constantly. It might not be so hard a few years down the line, but my hope is that I never let myself forget where I came from in the journey. Whenever the scale goes up more than a couple of pounds at any given time (once I reach my goal) I plan to refocus and pull out the scrapbook I'm currently making to see how far I've traveled and what the stakes are if I let the battle go. I of course am glad that I have such a great support system both in the blog world and at home.
So I'm desperately trying today to just let all of those feelings go - and do what I know I need to in order to someday see a light at the end of this tunnel. As Donna says - when we're heavier - it takes longer for us to see changes in our clothing sizes... so I'm trying to stay positive. I have seen some changes there, but not as dramatic as I would have hoped I would see by now.
Here is what I'll have consumed by the end of the day:
6 AM - 8 oz of Grape Juice - sweetened with splenda... because I'm still trying to not get sick!
7-8 AM - 16 oz of water - on the drive in to work...
8:30 AM - 4 oz of my Isopure shake (chocolate) mixed with Mootopia Skim Milk
9 - 10:30 AM - 8 oz of water - work makes me so unfocused with drinking!!
11 AM - 4 oz of Isopure shake (chocolate) mixed with Mootopia Skim Milk
11:30 - 12:30 PM - No water... DARN!
1 PM - 2 oz turkey patty with spinach, 1 tsp mayo, and 1/4 of a low-carb pita
1:30 - 2:30 PM - 8 oz of water
3 PM - 1/2 cup frozen edamame steamed with chicken broth, and a dash of soy sauce
3:30 - 4:15 - 16 oz of water
4:45 PM - 4 oz of Isopure shake (chocolate) mixed with Mootopia Skim Milk
5:15 - 6 PM - 16 oz of water - if I make these last two... that gets my 64 oz today!!
7 PM - 2 oz leftover rotisserie chicken and 1/4 cup of green beans
7:30 PM - if I can take it - I'll have 10 oz of iced tea with 1 packet of splenda
So those of you out there that are WLS veterans - let me know what you think about my diet for today...
I'll also be walking at 6 with my friends - I don't know the distance that we walk, but we walk for 30 minutes. I'll get out there one of these days soon and drive our walk path to see how far we go in those 30 minutes.
I've also just sent my daily plan to the nutritionist for my hospital - Jodi has always been a great help - so maybe she'll have some suggestions or offer to look over my diet for a few days to see if there is something I could be doing better.
I'm going to comment, but please don't take anything I say to heart, this is just my experience.
ReplyDeleteI'm curious about the juice. I was told never to drink calories, especially juice.
In my first months, I only ate protein at meals. There was never any room for veggies or carbs. If there was, I would eat a little more protein to work on getting protein from food. The more protein you get in, the more you will lose.
Please remember, everyone of us is different and has different guidelines from our surgeons.
You are doing awesome on your water intake!
As far as feeling like a failure during stalls, I think we all feel like that. Your scale will move and probably a big number.
Your are doing really awesome with your exercise too! You and Donna are motivating me to get on my treadmill.
You have to do what's right for you and take advise with a grain of salt.
You know what, Kim? Almost every single WLS blog I have ever read has said almost exactly the same thing..the scale isn't moving, am I the only one this surgery is not going to work for, etc. And all those people got beyond that and got back to losing. So take a deep breath. You are right where you are supposed to be!
ReplyDeleteyou could get a pedometer from walmart for about 5 bucks.. that will tell you how many miles and steps and even calories you are burning.. I like to bring my pedometer with me all the time even at work..good luck and your doing great...!!!
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Sorry I have been away... got bronchitis and the last thing on my mind is blogging... I wanted to let you know that I am feeling somewhat the same as you are about the weight loss. I am losing, just seems so slow. I went for my 2nd fill this morning and I actually lost 8.5 lbs since my last fill which was 3 weeks ago. I was pretty happy about that, since I really haven't tried as hard as I would like to as far as exercising goes. I have noticed however the inches dropping, since my surgery I have dropped from a size 30 to a 26 and the 26 is little too big. I can't actually wear them without a belt!! That is so crazy to me :)
ReplyDeleteWishing you lots of luck always!